So…I have reached a point in my life where I feel stagnant. A lot of people face this phase every single day. I have worked and lived in many countries, I have an amazing family, an absolutely adorable dog and in all honesty..life should be peachy but it is not. This is not about relationships, love, broken hearts or money or work. Rather this is about ‘all of the above’ and finding that perfect balance in life and feeling that serenity. All my life, I have lacked stability because I have moved from one home to another or one country to another. I went to university in Providence, RI and got a job on Boston but by the time I started settling into my job, I was informed that the company would not be able to extend my visa. So I had to pack up and move back home to India. A miracle happened and I got an offer to go work in London. So, I took up the job and moved but the job was just mediocre, the weather was horrible and to top it all I got into an emotionally toxic relationship. 4 years down the line, completely unhappy, no savings and emotionally devastated I decided that I could not take it any more. Maybe I was being silly by giving up my dreams because of this unhappy bubble I was in…but I was not at peace and the hurt in me was beginning to take its toll. Somehow I could not come to love London because I associated the city to all the bad stuff that was going on in my life. So, I resigned and came back home…this time…to Dubai! Oh, did I mention that I get the moving around A LOT from my family? Over the past couple of years I have completed my MBA and started an online magazine and things are good BUT that so called ‘serenity’ eludes me.
A few years back, I decided to go for a meditation course. It was a 7 day course and apart from the whole breathing process, I found the whole thing a bit cult-ish. Besides I think I put way too much stock into this course expecting that it would be life changing. Unfortunately…it did not change my life or my thought process so once the course was over, I did not go back or practice the breathing at home on a regular basis. Life went on and then ‘The Secret’ happened to me. Just like millions of people who read the book and watched the movie, I was inspired and filled with hope! I used to read the book over and over trying to soak in all the positive energies. I introduced the book to my family and friends and started the process of visualization, daily affirmations. I truly believe ‘The Secret’ came to me when I needed it the most…
The problem is that we are only human. Busy lives, technology, television, shows, friends etc etc. We start something good, stick to it religiously for a few days…maybe even months and then we either lose interest, forget and stop. If something good comes out of it, we do the 30 second dance party in our heads, believe and then move on. If something bad happens, we lose faith completely. For example, I would follow ‘The Secret’ teachings and if I had a bad day….THAT WAS IT. I would become grumpy and negative and just let go of everything I had been believing in for so many days…
I have to admit that when I follow ‘The Secret’ teachings…I feel amazing! My problem is that I have these ups and downs and I do not stick to the ‘believe’ part and start getting impatient. So….I have created a 7 day ‘Secret’ belief system. Now I am blogging about this which means that each day I will follow the set teaching for the day to the core and then share my experiences on this blog. Somehow recording this might help me follow it through. The whole thing about ‘The Secret’ is to make it a way of living…absorbing it in your life in such a way that the teachings seep through into our system. So…this is my ‘Secret Journal’…I believe in miracles…let the magic begin…
Anjalique
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